Words really don't matter much to me anymore. Been let down much too many times.

Screw promises lah. You can say sorry, I can say it's okay. But deep down, when a promise has been broken, your credibility will never be the same again. Believe I've been there too. Screw promises lah.

Just don't give me bullshit cause it make things worse.

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Life hasn't been all smooth sailing. Too much have been happening this year. Too much for me to handle. I feel like I'm about to crumble and no one is gonna catch me when I'm going down.

I need some personal time to breathe and think. :'(

I need to set my life straight again.

She has gone to a better place, away from all sufferings and pain. I'm sure.

外婆，byebye.

hot milo, stolen pillow from china airline, pen, paper @ 1:07am.

here me go.

i can do this.

China was such a fulfilling and enriching trip. I am learning to appreciate life a lot more. Much more. Anyway, if any of you guys thought I went there to enjoy... you're wrong. Maybe not entirely cause I DID enjoy myself, but probably not in your terms. Life was hard over there, getting used to the living conditions, food, temperature and.. people. Trust me, Chinese, they are easy to talk to, easy to communicate, but you will never know what is the true meaning of their speech. But, there are really nice people. :D

I miss ZPGY so much I swear. There were so many times when I really needed people to talk to and wished they were here with me. :( Loved their gift that they give. Damn chweet leh! I had a letter to look forward to everyday and sometimes I open 2 at a time like for example, on 22nd October 12am, I'll open 21st October's and 22nd October's. Hahhaa gerrit. And they have like really funny gifts. Especially the sticky cotton ear buds. I was totally feeling the ear wax running around in my ear and tickling me. Hhahahaaa I think we got chemistry. Hehe. And it secretly feels quite shuang to see the jealousy in other people's eyes. hahah but not like they care that much lah. They've been there done that haha. BUT STILL YOU GET IT RIGHT. I HAVE LOVELY FRIENDS, WE ALL KNOW IT. And that's all I need. :) Felt damn bad that I couldn't get any gifts for them. :( 对不起

Life kinda feels weird to be back in Singapore. After 2 weeks without any forms of technology/communication with the outside world, especially Singapore, I had no idea what the hell was going on and its damn difficult to fit back into school. I only had 1 chance to use the net, and it was to check for my class timetable haaa. I secretly sneaked into msn and chatted a little with ying and eric. Feels so good to have someone else living in Singapore to talk to other than the fellow 20 YEP mates.

I am finally feeling the jitters of returning back to school, something that all my other schoolmates have probably overcome since school have already started more than 1 week. :( And it doesn't help that I had to go to school with a swollen face&eyes (I'll explain that next time) and a really bad cough looking and feeling damn cui. Plus, when I first stepped into class, there wasn't even the full class around, everyone was busy with their own things, own shoots, fiddling with the cameras and consulting CY. Not to mention all these happened in a new studio. Surreal to the maximum. Oh my mama leh. This is so bad. It's gonna be damn difficult to fit in. Bad bad bad. Aye, thank goodness for Carmelle and Susanna who are around for meeeee! SO gonna bug them all the way haha. :) I need to do this!

I miss my mum so much. Haha. I sound like a mummy's girl and I don't deny it ok. But its all because I haven't seen her at all since I'm back cause she went over to gentings, she should be returning home tonight. :D

And there has been so many mishaps going on since I came back. Things like my Aunt losing her Malaysian Passport in Singapore (damn jialat) and things like my uncle who just passed away from sleeping. :( Sad news but oh well. Life still goes on and I must get back on track with Singapore.

The internet at home is not working, and I have no idea how to fix it. My brother is away at Australia for 2 mother long months. So. it's quite ggballs. I'm tapping on someone else's Internet, well thanks if you ever see this.

Alright that's about all for now, I'm quite excited to share with all of you about China but it's gonna take eons to finish so, obviously not now.

Dinner time, I'm famished.

Helluha Chinaaaa!

Will miss all of you seeeeeeeee you! :D

It's coming it's coming it's coming! :D

Anyway, because I'm gonna be so busy the next week, I think I hardly got time to go out shopping for newipod's clothes. So...... when I was at Daiso's yesterday..... I desperately bought this Hello Kitty Pouch that can contain(at least basic protection for) my Ipod. I think I will get judged quite badly but eh. It's like only 2 dollars, what more do you expect right. (Y)

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YESTERDAY RIGHT, I WORKED FOR ONLY ONE PATHETIC HOUR LEH. -.-

My job was to help Newcastle graduates to put on their graduation gown. And there were only 20+ of them. I only managed to help 4 to pin their gowns. My work started at 9 and ended at 10. WHAT IS THIS RIGHT. I woke up so early just to work for 1 hr. (Y) Geksai lah.

The pay is not even enough to cover my traveling expenses for the day.

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The IAD students are flying off to Japan tonight! So excited for them! Gotta go and send them off later!

Okay bye. I NEED TO FINISH THE YEP BOOKLET BY TODAY. NEEEEEEEEED.

Today I... Went to draw blood for the first time. Bloody leh.. Literally. Scary. Totally saw the needle poking into my veins and felt the suction of my blood. Half a test tube leh.. K slightly lesser. But still. Anyway, I will get to know what is my blood group in 2 days time. Excited much.

Today I... Got my results for the previous semester. Quite disappointing. Expected my results to drop lah but when you really see it then like warao, big sigh geksai ttm. But what to do. Stupid leh. I got my first D from Packaging. Quite sad cause I really did put in effort leh. And that is the module with the least sleepable nights(module was taken tgt with prepress). :( Oh wells. Next on the list is Advertising, a C. Actually this one I really nothing to say. I was, frankly speaking, struggling from this module. This one really cannot make it. Others like ~ loh. Ah wells. What to do, what's done is done, what's out is out. On a happier note, I got an A for studio lighting. I know right. I should totally strive and work doubly, or make it triply hard and really do well for photography.